The happiness of full potential...

I am beginning to develop a keen awareness of how to live life to its fullest potential. Living goes beyond the importance of exceeding your own expectations…its actually the logical understanding of being happy with the endeavors that are bestowed…it’s the embracing of knowledge from those of greater wisdom and the strength and tenacity to withstand the tribulations of life…while appreciating the very blessing of being able to experience the good with the bad. Life itself is a blessing…how happy you are with living it is what you make of it. Over the course of weeks, actually months, I have felt various emotions regarding the decisions that I have made in my life…those decisions may have not always been those of the most wise or prudent. At times my feelings would take control over the very logical thought process that would occur and deter me from the original plan of action. Now that I have come to this realization that my emotions are conflicting with my coherent thinking, I am beginning to make some changes. I have always said that my word was my bond…I mean what I say and say what I mean and its very rare that I fall anywhere in between. Yet I have reneged on own words by not putting them into actions…how do I make it up to myself? I seek to find the happiness that I have once rejoiced in the midst of…even when being physically alone and enjoying the relationship I had with the God that I knew. This God, is the one I had a relationship with but chose to remove him from my life to get exposed to things I regretfully thought I was missing. It’s a funny thing…those decisions….the decisions we make today, determines what happens tomorrow…and if today’s decision does not teach us a lesson…our today’s test will be tested again tomorrow. I have to reach that happy point again, so that I can live my life to its full potential of my own standards. The plan is to first get to know my God again so that He can show me my purpose, lay out my path, provide me with my strength and be my strength when I can’t withstand…and I will seek Him out as He is all that is happy, joyful and of life and love….because He is my full potential…He is who gives me life.