Letting Go of a Remembrance

I thought about calling you
But I changed my mind...
So...I put the phone down
Profoundly realizing that the thoughts that I have of you are mine to keep
And the benefit of knowing is no longer yours to reap
So I leap forward to forget about you...
Attempting to be affected by you no longer.
I'm learning to fulfill my hunger to be loved
By one whom I call myself.
So I hold two fingers up to chalk up the dueces
And maybe one day you'll eventually define
all that we were and all that I hoped us to be
Which at that time you were too blind to see
Since your focus was never really on me.
Therefore...I am seeking out a sacred and safe haven.
I want to restore what has been broken...
by provoking strength to withstand over sorrowful feelings
Things such as self pity and loneliness...
So I caress my mind with thoughts of success and happiness.
But I'm just battling myself in this "lost in thought" war
Trying to focus on all that I have to gain and all that is to be grateful for
To pick myself up and discover the more... The more that is to come...the more that is to be and step into a destined love that is meant for me,
Because clearly this love was not prepared for you
I'm just hoping that I don't have déjà vu when this "something new" comes along...
When he that finds me understands my worth and values it as a priceless asset
Rather than a set of assets fondled by unworthy hands of unless beings...
Which brings me to finally reaching a point of new beginnings
Seeking a place to kindle my feelings.
So I focus on what's true and what is real
Of course giving myself enough time to heal
To reflect on what was learned from this shared experience
Praying that I receive the deliverance from you in my remembrance