A Movie Night With You

Oh what I would do for a movie night with you
Lying in your arms as you hold my body in the solitude of us
Reaching for my glass of wine to toast to the connection we've developed and the happiness that encompasses it
Being tickled by your fingers filling by belly with laughter
Yet being caressed by the tips of them allowing tingles to electrify me
You running your hands through my hair
My eyes would close as I breathe deeply
I would experience that comfortable feeling of being with just you
Revolting all thoughts of being with someone else
If this is what love felt like...I never want to run from it
Prevent it or deny it
If only I could have another movie night with you
Just to turn on a movie but be in the making of our own
Me sliding my hands along your spine
Massaging you to relax you
While in the attire of lingerie
You observe the silhouette of my curves awaiting a night of passion
Room begins to spin as we make our moist exchange
Holding you so tight while leaving tatooed lines on your back
Just to remind you of the intensity of what you have given me
To then begin cuddling in the midst of our sweat
Moving my toes along the legs of yours
Wrapping ourselves in each other
All that was broken...all that was unsure was then concealed
All those negative emotions were sexually healed
If only we had another movie night
Dressed in our fancy clothes
Awaiting a night of bliss…a story beginning its creation
The night is young and so are we so this must be an eventful celebration
We lay across our blanket in the grass
With the lake breeze chilling the hairs on my skin
You surround me with your presence
Ensuring that your warmth is bestowed upon me…within me
We enjoy the film of a black and white love story
We laugh at the thoughts of love being so ideal…so unrealistic
Yet what we had was real and enough for us
Full of imperfections and misunderstandings
Some insecurities, disagreements and happy endings
But in those moments of being with you…
I knew...
There wasn't anything to compare with our union
We had what we had and that was more than others may have dreamed of
If only I could spend another movie night with you
Yet, this night wouldn't be a movie night at all
This night we supported one another in our individual stories
Bringing each other into our lives to reveal to others what we have
What is the epitome of greatest?
A couple of power I would say
My introduction of you being the outstanding,tall/dark/handsome and admired man that you are
While you promoting me for being the intelligent, beautiful and strong woman that I am
Suit and tie, dress and heels...
"I would always be there for you love..." that was our deal
All that saw, all who were there to see
Undoubtly knew that together, it was you and me
If only I had just one last movie night with you...
Another conversation with you
Warm embrace, kiss, or smile from you
Never once did I think this day would come
Never did this thought cross my mind
Yet on this day, the only option I had was to rewind
This movie…our movie…our story…came to an end
The day that I lost my lover, my supporter, my friend
When the Producer, the Creator saw fit to take you out of my reality
No longer a love story, but now a tragedy
I guess now this movie is starring me…without you
I'm so confused that I don't know what to do
It's not fair that I have to make this performance alone…I have to put on this face
As if your presence I could mentally erase
But safe embedded inside of me
Are our memories where others cannot see
You’ll now never know how much you meant to me
Or all of what I imagined us to be
If only I could have one last movie night with you
So that I could whisper in your ear how much I loved you
There is too much to hold on to, too much to which is unfinished
Still I can't believe that you just vanished
But since this time has come where I have cried so many tears
I never knew that losing you was one of my greatest fears
Yet when the clock stopped ticking for me to hear
I knew I had to accept the truth of you no longer being near

I love you baby…miss you more than you’ll ever know...I wish I would have appreciated every moment I spent with you, given that you always wanted to be there for me and with me. I still can't believe that you died and I will never get the chance to see you again...I wish I wasn't so hard on you...I wish that our last conversation wasn't me fussing at you, I wish that I would have said "yes" when you asked...So many things, so much left to say...If only...I could just see you one last time and talk to you...I wasn't prepared for you to leave...
In Loving Memory of DM.